July 29th, 2006
priceless memories were quickly auctioned off to tha highest bidder
i saw dollar signs inside your eyes
& knew right then that once again,
you had let it whither
but for once in your life,
you let yourself litter
on the floor
yeah, you ripped bits & pieces of tha love
you claimed would never leave “us”
but you deceived “us”
i said,
you let bitter seeds reap weeds
just when we
had achieved the secrets
to scenes more serene
than the white sand beaches
that stretched out upon Visayan shores
i said,
you picked up the negatives we couldn’t afford
and let more
than just Pandora out the box
you ensured our end
& lost tha key to our lock
and i laid beneath you,
shocked at the sleeves you had torn off
dumbfounded at how easy it was
for you could get lost in one second
but then, you’d scream out
my name
just to blame me
for the loss i was left in
like i was the reason
for ridiculuous seasons
like i was the cause
for hyperventilated breathin’
because i had to choose to keep on healin’
a broken heart that bore unhealthy outlooks
instead of unleashin’ demons on innocent bystanders
i’m sorry, i wasn’t good enought
to measure up to your standards
and i’m sorry you can’t remember
how Xander’s voice sounded
two years ago
or how exploding volcanoes
got tongue-tied
over Razrs with callback ringers
or how Boiler Rooms
seemed to make the thought of you linger
